I have twins. One lives with me and one is in heaven. After my twins were born, when I was a new mom and totally naive, I was on a quest to get my pre-baby body back. Those first few months postpartum, I didn’t recognize my body. I couldn’t connect with it. I felt like a stranger in someone else’s body. For over a year, I pursued various fitness avenues, determined to get my pre-baby body back. I found MUTU System, which amazingly worked exactly as I hoped. I lost weight, healed my diastasis recti, flattened my tummy, and gained strength and confidence. But, make no mistake, my belly still shows signs that I once gave birth to twins. My skin is stretched out, my belly button is a very funny shape, and my abs, though strong and functional, are still visibly separated. My body has been forever changed. I will never have a pre-baby body ever again. No matter what size it is, it is a post-baby body. And, I love it. I love that my body was strong and able, by the grace of God, to carry my twins for 38 weeks. I cherish those babies and I wouldn’t trade them for a pre-baby body for anything in the world.
One of my twins went to heaven just 4 months ago. My pain is still very raw and I miss him terribly every day. Now, when I look in the mirror, I see my slightly deformed belly and it is a beautiful reminder to me that I got to love and take care of that precious boy for 2 years. So, mamas, remember what your body did. It gave you that special beautiful child that you get to love and hug and watch grow up. That body, which God himself created, did an amazing thing. Never ever take it for granted or wish it was different. Your kids are your legacy and your body was the vehicle. Look in the mirror and stand tall and proud, no matter your shape. Then, go and hug your babies. Believe me, I wish I could.